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Reality is Hard to Find

by DartAjax

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on the trail going nowhere at all I know where we are I know where we are when you realize there are so many ways so many ways to fall you can take away the wilderness take away the accidents realize what we have seen there are so many ways to fall there are so many ways to fall
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you know we sit around sit around and wonder aloud what it is that we want to know we need to find the object of it all hiding away across the field see my tears drying on the ground momentary sight as they vaporize underground beneath the wool there's so much more to know that we never will and we will find the object of it all across the ground we see streams everywhere we can't drink from them at all see the way we have to go on our own and we will find the object of it all
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the last thing I remember when I woke up I found myself in school naked with no clothes on the last thing I remember I was nowhere I mean nowhere at all last thing I remember I woke up I woke up found myself in school with no clothes on I woke up
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All We Are 01:50
one of these days this will be ours again the ones who believe in happiness and calm I don't believe in random chance but I know it's real at least we have a fighting chance in hell all we are is all we are one of these days I will find myself at ease you will be there with me I hope one of these days we will understand the lies we hear all we are is all we are everything is all we are all we are is everything all we are is everything
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I'm okay to be no one where I am I'd rather be someone where you are when you look to me what do you see? something I hope that you would like for your mind, heart, body, and soul I'm over here can you see me at all? I'm okay to be no one where I am I'd rather be where you are when you look to me what do you see? something I hope that you would like your mind, heart, body, and soul
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making something out of nothing but it never was nothing somehow we made a hero out of you what did you do make the best without chowdering that's all you needed to do making something out of nothing it's nice to do you know it's nice to do making something out of nothing but it never was nothing but it never was making something out of nothing but it never was nothing but it never was nothing
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when I find myself you will know I've looked everywhere what do I know? it makes the days makes the days makes the days go by I've looked everywhere when I find my way you will know when I find my way you will know
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the finest thing we try to find it always hides from us you know the finest song we've never heard and we never will I feel I say this honestly convincingly reality is hard to find with all we know with all there is I can't believe what I see sometimes we all think this is real but reality is hard to find oh I know rolling this into decency reality is hard to find I've been around a while and still I see reality is hard to find I say this honestly convincingly reality is hard to find full of fear I think I know but reality is hard to find
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Normal Town 02:54
I found myself so high above and I wondered what I could see more of and then far too soon we had to leave and go down it was nice being high above it was nice being high above it was nice being high above I find myself in normal town glad to be back where I know what's going on I'm afraid of being afraid of being afraid I'm not glad to feel that again checking my brain at the lost and found I'm glad they tracked it down they tracked it down to normal town moving straight ahead I must be back in normal town it seems so familiar I'm afraid of being afraid of being afraid I am afraid checking for my brain at the lost and found I'm glad they tracked it they tracked it down to normal town
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she's with you when you're home she's with you when you've gone but with you always as for me I get a little more in every step I'm with you always I can feel you with me you are here with me and I'm with you always I'm with you when you're home I'm with you when you've gone but with you always when things aren't going easily and it's hard to get through we help each other we do our best reaching out understand what's on the line on the line you should know I'm with you always I'm with you always now you know where we are it could be a better day I'm glad I know where we are it could be a perfect day today
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what is normal anymore? will there ever be such a thing again? we can't control it's bigger than any one of us it happens half a world away still it's freaking me out what is normal anymore? what is normal anymore? did you ever wonder why we feel so low? it's the heavy nature of our world these days so we know is there such a thing? did you ever wonder why we feel so low? it's the heavy nature of our world these days oh I know these days
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Is Normalcy? 01:41
so I thought this would be enough I brought so much to knock the chip off once to knock it off once and for all and then to find out it has worms inside destroying it wilderness is hard to find in here so I lie but I found another way one more thing to try a lie the truth a lie the truth I thought I would I thought I could I remembered another day my mind can see my eyes can see is normalcy where I am?
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seems to me I can't find where we are supposed to go seems to me I can't find anywhere at all at getting lost at getting lost I'm the best deception where did you go and what did you see? reaction who were you with and what did they say? deflection I went nowhere and I saw nothing conception I was with no one and I heard nothing seems to me I can't find where we are supposed to go seems to me I can't find anywhere at all at getting lost at getting lost I'm the best reflection I can see nothing when I look at myself distraction you didn't see what you swear that you saw seems to me I can't find where we are supposed to go at getting lost at getting lost I'm the best
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distant warning the cloud are hidden invisible to the eye it's controlled by and we're covered by a secret net strangely forbidden until then I'm biding my time I can sense the energy seems it always has its way you know we're covered by a secret net and there is no way to ever forget the future is over but not yet the fringes of society sinking into me every day I'm noticing but not running not running away covered by a secret net you know we're covered by a secret net by a secret net covered by covered by a secret net what do we know? how far can we go? and what do we know? covered by covered by a secret net secret net secret net
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withholding information not the same as lying I claim and I know I've done that before to avoid a situation I have selective memory we all have selective memory how can I tell you what I don't know you won't know that I know so shut like a clam I stay all day you let me know what's going to happen to me if I tell everything I might but until then selective memory why would I lie when I don't remember at all? you can ask me again and again and again can I plead the fifth 'cuz I'm a piece of shit? and there's nothing I can say at all 'cuz it's all bad yes it's all bad and it's all so wrong

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This is the album I try to record in February every year. It's called the RPM Challenge. I have been doing it since 2009.

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released May 7, 2022

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DartAjax San Francisco, California

DartAjax represents the solo recorded output of David Leonard, of San Francisco, CA. He (me) has played drums in a number of bands and still does. He plays all the instruments in the DartAjax stuff (usually drums, bass, guitar, and vocals). He wrote and recorded all of these songs on his own. ... more

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